I went for my first post-pregnancy, post-delivery run.
I told myself I would be happy if I could go three miles without stopping. (Keep in mind, I haven't just run 3 miles for years, I would at least run 4 when I would go, including pregnancy)
I knew it would be hard. It's been nearly 8 weeks since I have gone running.
I had no idea HOW HARD it would be. I barely made it 1.5 miles before I had to stop and take a break. WHAT?
I was even running slower than I ran during my pregnancy.
I couldn't believe how weak my legs felt.
Needless to say I was very frustrated to during my run at this point.
I really didn't think I would have to start ALL OVER with my running, and be THAT out of shape.
My dreams for races this spring and summer seemed far fetched and impossible.
Then I remembered my WORD.
I tried to refocus my thoughts and enjoy the last 1.8 miles of my run. I didn't end up running faster, in fact the last half of my run was slower and it included some walking. But I thought of my sweet Charlotte and remembered what my body went through not too long ago and I told myself it was ok to go slow. I took a moment to enjoy running in the rain. I took a moment to enjoy the view of the mountains. I tried to APPRECIATE my run for what it was worth.
Don't get me wrong, I still had some negative thoughts and I came home wanting to cry, feeling like I had lost how far I've come in my running. But it's the beginning of a new mind set for me. I've got to appreciate how well I did knowing what my body did 6 weeks ago. My running can only get better from here on out right?
**Hey mom runners out there...how long until you felt like your old running self? Did you ever feel like you got back to where you once were?
8 comments:
Now if I want to go running I have to wear depends (slight exaggeration... maybe). It was really hard for me to start again. But you are in better shape than I ever was... I'm sure you'll get back into the groove fast and get your strength back, especially now that you have to push the BOB.
To paraphrase Shakesspeare (or someone famous): "One run does not a runner make." Don't judge your ability to run again based on your experience yesterday. You will be fine--and truly stronger than you were before. Give yourself a few more runs.
Lar- you'll get there. give yourself time and look at it as a whole new beginning to become a new runner- running post baby is so hard and then, one day it'll be even more rewarding when you finish your run than you ever felt before. Mind you I am no you- you are an amazing runner- but I have always been proud of coming back to it after baby(I have a bob too and I think that is why I leave the house!) you and that babus are BEAUTIFUL!
You'll be amazed how quick it comes back. That first run is a killer!! Another 4 weeks and you'll be back to "pre-pregnancy" I had Brooke in October and I ran 8 miles last week, and im doing the moab half in a month. Don't get discouraged!!!!
Who cares if you were slow, you were out ALL BY YOURSELF!!!! In fact, the slower you go, the longer you get to stay out. So enjoy the slow process because it won't be long before you will once again be a speed demon:)
I agree with what Katie said, think of it as time to yourself in your own head- even if you're pushing the BOB. Take your time, enjoy the progress you make, give yourself a reward when you make it back to 4 miles. Shoe are always good.
Oh my you are way too hard on yourself!!! I ran 4 miles today for the 2nd tiem in my entire life!...and it about killed me!:) You are awesome and it will all come back soon. I love your word for the year!! Such an inspiring post. Thanks:) Oh and this goes without saying but I'll say it anyway: Charlotte is DARLING!!! Don't you just love being a mommy? It suits you:)
I never saw this post before...you are awesome. I'm glad you took the time to appreciate the view and the amazing body you have been given.
Think of how far you've come now!
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