I had my first real test of MY WORD today.
I went for my first post-pregnancy, post-delivery run.
I told myself I would be happy if I could go three miles without stopping. (Keep in mind, I haven't just run 3 miles for years, I would at least run 4 when I would go, including pregnancy)
I knew it would be hard. It's been nearly 8 weeks since I have gone running.
I had no idea HOW HARD it would be. I barely made it 1.5 miles before I had to stop and take a break. WHAT?
I was even running slower than I ran during my pregnancy.
I couldn't believe how weak my legs felt.
Needless to say I was very frustrated to during my run at this point.
I really didn't think I would have to start ALL OVER with my running, and be THAT out of shape.
My dreams for races this spring and summer seemed far fetched and impossible.
Then I remembered my WORD.
I tried to refocus my thoughts and enjoy the last 1.8 miles of my run. I didn't end up running faster, in fact the last half of my run was slower and it included some walking. But I thought of my sweet Charlotte and remembered what my body went through not too long ago and I told myself it was ok to go slow. I took a moment to enjoy running in the rain. I took a moment to enjoy the view of the mountains. I tried to APPRECIATE my run for what it was worth.
Don't get me wrong, I still had some negative thoughts and I came home wanting to cry, feeling like I had lost how far I've come in my running. But it's the beginning of a new mind set for me. I've got to appreciate how well I did knowing what my body did 6 weeks ago. My running can only get better from here on out right?
**Hey mom runners out there...how long until you felt like your old running self? Did you ever feel like you got back to where you once were?